HIS Beloved

Everyday I am learning

The beauty on my skin

The beauty in my spirit man

The beauty in my sould

HE wraps me in HIS arms

Safe from all harm

HE loves me

HE sees my flaws

And HE still loves me

Everyday I am learning

Who I am in the Kingdom

Heavens Royalty

An heir to HIS thrown

Side by Side

I sit with my FATHER

HE gives me the favor of Esther

And see's me as the Proverbian Queen

I am HIS Beloved

The beauty HE looks upon

Perfect in HIS eyes

Always and forever loved by HIM

I am HIS Beloved

Today While In My Feelings...

Status is Changing Decline has Declined I'm On My Way to Better Days.... Andre Jones............................................. Today while I was in my feelings... I grew up Grew up from trying to impress... From trying to love with a brokenheart... From trying to keep friends around.. Because when... When I was growing up up UP... None of this was nothing but a thing... It was dust, now like Adam... All my feelings have become... Become part of my human nature... Their first impressions of me: Everyone knew I had the cash... Everyone knew I had the house... Everyone knew I had the car... Everyone knew I had the "parents"... In my house: mom and brother... Under the roof of my grandparents... However, because of the dress.. The talk... the education... To the eyes I had it all...To the eyes I have it all... But in my own mind, I knew... I know... I know I was just fine... And one day I will be even better... To the eyes... I have the life... To God... I have favor... To my flesh, I envy... Not my neighbore flesh, But I envy my future... Awaiting my future, to be held tight... Tight into my hands... With my hands in HIS hands... I know HE'LL take me... Take me to that place... Where HE desires for me to be... Where not only my flesh... But my Spirit, Mind, and Soul... Will be happy... My heart satisfied... But open to receive more... Today in my feelings I almost fell into doubt... Of how people feel about me.. How they care about me... How they think about me... But I remember... This life is for me to live... Everyday I wake up... I wake up to see... To see my beautiFULL face... And one day, the man... The man I will call mine... Will invoke himself with my presence... His breath into mind... We will become ONE... Today while in my feelings... I faced fear with a smile... I faced doubt with "A glass half full"... I faced growing up into a bigger part me... A part of me that's uncontainable to eyes... Misunderstood by the crowd... Disrespected by the spectators... Mistreated by the closest of friends... Today...Now... and Forever... While in my feelings, I will no longer be lost... Be defeated... By the assumptions of... Of what the eyes may see...say... or think... About me... Today While In My Feelings................................... My Good Days Outweigh My... My Bad Days... My Bad Days..... A. B. Nicholas

...But You Came Again

I wanted to move on But you came again My heart- Almost ready to love But you entered in- Back into my heart You found your place again- Back into my heart Into that tender touch- My love fell for you again I was ready for love But you came again Only to love you- And nobody else You wanted my heart- More than anything But my heart Wanted to love again- More than anything I thought you were gone But you came again Ring,Talk,Smile,Sleep You knew my tenderness Touch,Embrace,Kiss,Make Up You knew my tenderness You knew the way back into my heart I thought I led you around Losing you to help you- Lose the place that captured my heart But what I failed to realize- Is that I didn't move the spot But what I failed to realize- Someone so close to your heart Knows all the tricks and the trades In my failure- I failed and gave you my heart I didn't hold it in my hand Just to show you- The places that made me smile But I gave it to you to hold So when you came again You didn't return my heart But, you showed me- The places in my heart that you hurt You showed me the place where my desires laid But when you came again You not only showed me my heart You gave it back- So that I could forgive you This time when you leave- I will hide my heart And if you search for it Only G-D will be able- To show you the way When you come again, Love

Moving On..... ?????

At the moment, I just feel like going off on a random tangent about relationships and the man I love dearly, but has hurt me! I forgive him, I really do, but even though we are not together it hurts because of one issue I wish he never told me about. However, he still had the audacity to ask me to be back with him. That blew me! How do men go off, do you dirty, get caught and then ask you to be with them. And even ask you to marry them! REALLY? I see nothing manly about it! I won't use the word dog, but I will use the words BOY and JERK! Right now, I really desire a man who is going to care for me! Romance me! Causes me to smile throughout the day with just the thought of him! I am just ready to meet Prince Charming! I want to be swept off my feet! But I will never forget him! I spent six years of my life with him, growing up, learning, loving, hurting, having fun, etc... He was my best friend, he really was and at one point he was my entire world! I will miss him! GOSH, I really love this dude! But time causes for changes and I believe it is time to move on! No longer will I be hindered by hurt or memories of the past. I am excited to meet someone new! And when I find him, he will be ALL I want and NEED in a MAN. He won't remind me of the past. I won't have to say to him, "Well my ex....blah blah" Because he will be beyond that!